Yeayyyy!

Yayyy! He posted something to my wall yesterday...wihuu...
Happy..happy...!!! ^_^

Shontelle - Perfect Nightmare

Perfect Nightmare Lyrics

sometimes we fight
sometimes i cry
why dont i just tell him goodbye
sometimes i should but sometimes i dont
build up the strength to say that its wrong

sometimes i hate
sometimes i love
sometimes i hurt
sometimes i dont
sometimes i wait for him to change
but its okay i just got to pay (yeah)

and i dont ever wanna leave em' alone
they say im brain washed
but im in love with this man (yeahhh)


keep tellin myself that its not worth it
i already know i dont deserve it
but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare
so when will i wake up and scream
no way , no way , no way ,
no way , no way , no way , no way
but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare (perfect nightmare)

sometimes i keep it cool
sometimes i let 'em know
sometimes i even pack my bags to walk out the door
sometimes i feel safe
sometimes i really dont
sometimes i promise that im ready to let 'em gooo
but i dont ever wanna leave 'em alonee
they say im brain washed
but im in love with this man (ooooh)

keep tellin myself that its not worth it
i already know i dont deserve it
but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare
so when will i wake up and scream
no way , no way , no way ,
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no way , no way , no way , no way
but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare (perfect nightmare)

hopein hes changing
but im scared hes not
cant see a way to leave him
he open'd my eyes
and i..

keep tellin myself that its not worth it
i already know i dont deserve it
but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare (perfect)

keep tellin myself that its not worth it
i already know i dont deserve it
but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare
so when will i wake up and scream
no way , no way , no way ,
no way , no way , no way , no way

but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare (perfect nightmare)
no way , no way , no way ,
no way , no way , no way , no way

but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare (perfect nightmare)
* [ perfect nighmare ] *

Like this song soo much!! ^_^

Serious shit! I hate this kind of feeling!!! I just hate it soo much!! N I hate those person who made me feel like this..I just can't stand it anymore.... As a non-perfect human,sometimes I can be like an evil or even worst..ishhh!

Shontelle - Impossible Mp3 Download Free

Shontelle - Impossible Mp3 Download Free

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them



Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy (i was happy)
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Shontelle - Impossible Mp3 Download Free

Shontelle - Impossible Mp3 Download Free

Special Song For Me ^_^

Now,I'm listening to a song that my father wrote n dedicated for me..It's just so sweet n so touched when sum1 dat u love wrote u a song...=) My teardrops was fall down when I heard this song for the first time cuz my father said that he was inspired by me when he wrote this song..well,here's the lyrics...actually,the song is wrote in Iban language but then I'll try to translate it then...ngee..^_^

Seribu Rebah Ngimbai Nuan

(A Thousand People Beside You)

Sepuluh Ribu Ngelingi Nuan

(Ten Thousand People Surround You)

Tang Nuan Nda Kena Laban Penusah

(But U'll Never Be In Trouble)

Laban Tuhan Ti Penyaga Nuan  (2X)

(Cuz God Is Your Guardian)

C/O  :

Tuhan Penyaga Kami

(God Is Our Guardian)

Tuhan Pengimbun Kami

(God Is Our Protector)

Sayap Nuan Ngelindung Kami

(Your Wings Protect Us)

Tuhan Ti Pemadu Tinggi.

(God Is The Highest)

~ Thanx dad cuz being such a wonderful person for me ~

Wake-up Mina!

Just now,I text to my father and then I said to him that I'm afraid to sit my final exam which is 12 more days to go..And then,my father said, " God be with us if we trust Him wif all of our heart.Have faith!"..


My father's words really touched my heart.I was again awaken by God that He really there for me n gonna help me but the thing is,I didn't realised at all..I was so worried for the thing that I shouldn't worry;my future.


God say,"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in me.." I'll claim this word in my prayer n will throw away my fear n my anxious out of my life.I just have to work on it n let God do the rest..wihuuuuuu~~~ 

( Matthew 6:25-34 )

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?  Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 

"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

PlanetShakers - Everythings Changed

You ask me why

Why I’m so different

Why I’m not the same as everybody else

Well something changed

It just happened

When I opened up my heart and let Him in

Jesus came in he came into my life

And i know i never felt so good.

Cause Everything’s changed Everything is different

Everything’s changed Everything is different

Everything’s changed Everything is different

Everything’s changed Everything is different

Now

You ask me how

How I can be sure

How I know it’s not just something else for fun

Cause He’s so real

So real in my life

He picked me up and turned my universe around

Everything, everything, everything in my life’s changed

Everything, everything, everything in my life’s different

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are [Official Video]

.....................................................='(

I was hurt by the way u treat me..
I just can't understand why u keep doing this..
n what I realized the most is u've changed a lot if compare to the time when we're started our relationship..
It's really hurt u know...
Being wif u,really need a big "PATIENCE"...
that's what challenged me the most..
I never thought that I can be wif sum1 whom I can stand till today...
Never thought that I can be sum1 who finally find my love
n don't  want to let him go though my feelings hurt so many times...='(

needcomfortandstrengthtohandlethiskindofsituation

Ku Hidup BagiMu - Sari Simorangkir

I like this song soo much!! ^_^

Can I have?

Can I have....

Sum1 who can dedicate any love song for me?


Says that I am the one or maybe a part of him forever..


Sum1 who can wrote a song for me just like my father did?


Hehe..if this 'sum1' do exist,this world is just so sweet..^_^

blurrrrrrr....

I wonder if he ever visit my fb page.I just don’t get it.What I know is that he’s fbing n yet he can post or comment into other ppl’s fb.I can’t remember when is the last tym he posted something to my wall.I just don’t understand why he can’t post any to me..I just really hope that this thing will be happen since it was quite a long tym (it’s like several years ago-I don’t know) that he didn’t do that again.It just so sweet when he post something to me,but now,there’s none..what can I say?I wanna keep my feeling just deeply inside my heart,but I can’t stand.I don’t want to tell this to him cuz I know his answer.It’s just not worth it if I share this to him.Yala,I know that fb is just for his friends but sometimes I really want that he’ll post something to me,at least ONE.I feels like my fb have no function anymore,seriously.I did post to his wall,but its really take such a long time for him to reply but when it comes to his friends,wow!it’s just like a lightning storm,so fast!and then,sometimes I’m really sad wif his action that I will delete the post that I posted to him especially when I see that he already comment wif sumbody else,I’ll definitely delete my post.I’m quite sad when he can comment to others’ post even if the post was 21 hours ago or more than that,but mine one?Haha..I just don’t get it laa.Seriously.I’m not telling that I’m jealous or what but I just miss the time that he posted something to me.I really miss the time when he posted to my wall telling me that he loves me,he miss me,or asking me how was my day and so on.Whatever it is,I just continue to be patient ( as usual ).Now,I’ve new principe.I also don’t want to post anything to his wall.It’s simple.I think I can do this (I hope so).I’m enough with all of this,and I want this thing to be FAIR & SQUARE!

CURE YOUR DEPRESSION?

Blessed are those who mourn, 

for they will be comforted. 

Blessed are the meek, 

for they will inherit the earth. 

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, 

for they will be filled. 

Blessed are the merciful, 

for they will be shown mercy. 

Blessed are the pure in heart, 

for they will see God. 

Blessed are the peacemakers, 

for they will be called sons of God. 

Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, 

for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. 

Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. 

Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.. 

Matthew 5:4-12

Words From The Bible - Life Encouragement

Life is like a roller coaster ride, you never know what's next! However, when you sit into the roller coaster seat you have a seat belt that you put on. This seat belt prevents you from falling out of your seat, no matter how fast the ride. Even during patches where the roller coaster takes you upside down, you remain in your seat. It's because of the belt you've fastened. There are two points to remember here: put on the seat belt and believe it will protect you. Similarly, put your faith in Jesus Christ and believe He will protect you. Why should you believe He will protect you? Because the Bible tells you so. Let's have a look at what God has to say to us. 

Deuteronomy 31:6

"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."

Philippians 4:6

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." 

Philippians 4:13

"I can do everything through him who gives me strength." 

John 14:1

"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me."

Joshua 1:9

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." 

Isaiah 43:1-2

But now, this is what the LORD says— he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: 

"Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze." 

Kaulah Harapan - Sari Simorangkir - Lirik Lagu Rohani Kristen

I always listen to this song whenever I need encouragement...or sometimes, if I wanna start my typical day..=)

ENCOURAGEMENT

Recently,my friend wrote to me on a piece of paper (actually me n my friend was chat'ng)."Mina,give me some motivation.I feels like I need it".

        

After that,I replied,"Friend,how can I give u motivation if me myself are demotivated by my result.I feels like,I was so stupid.U know what,I was crying just now while I'm doing my accounting practice.U la,give me some motivation."

And then,I gave back the paper to her and know what?She took such a long time to reply and she's like so busy in writing something.I was wondering why.But actually,I didn't care,maybe,she still doing her work or something.So,I continue to do my work.

About 5minutes like that,she gave back the paper to me.I was shocked because the line in the paper already full.I mean,she wrote so long till the paper almost full.On that piece of paper,she gave me one story.It's about how God treat us when we're asking something from Him.

"Aku minta kepada Tuhan setangkai bunga segar, DIA beri kaktus berduri... Aku minta kupu-kupu, DIA beri ulat berbulu... Aku sedih dan berasa kecewa... Namun kemudian, kaktus itu berbunga indah, indah sekali. Dan ulat bulu pun menjadi kupu-kupu cantik berwarna-warni....

Itulah jalan Tuhan, indah pada waktuNya.Tuhan tidak memberi apa yang kita harapkan tapi DIA memberi apa yang kita perlukan. Kadang-kadang kita rasa sedih, kecewa dan terluka... Tapi yang sebenarnya, DIA sedang mengatur yang TERBAIK dalam kehidupan kita..."

Well,that's the story that my friend had told me.This story really touched my heart because it's really illustrate my life right now.It's kinda like an analogy that really suit with my situation right now.Yes,it's true.I was asking from God this and that but God doesn't answer me and gave me what I want.And then,sometimes I feels so sad,regret and hopeless as if God doesn't hear me,God doesn't beside me when I really need His help.But,not long after that,I'm asking for forgiveness from God.I've sin because I always point at Him when something bad happen to me.

I was 'pampered' by God since I was kid till I was here in KBU.What I want,I will always got it from God even if it is only a small thing such as I want to eat ice-cream,God will gave it to me.I knew it because my father gave me the ice-cream on the day that I really want the ice-cream so badly eventhough I didn't asked at all from my father.Actually,it's a lot and God really blessed my life.

But after I was in KBU,being an AUSMAT student some more,aiyaa,I feels like my life is so miserable! The things that is happened to my life make me feels so dissapointed,demotivated and HOPELESS! Im not saying that my life is not being blessed anymore by God but the thing is my life now is so hard that I really feels like my life is totally upside down.

Well,thanked God because everytime I was fall down,God will always lifted me up.Again n again n again.He would not gonna let me stuck in this kind of situation.And for this,I must thanked God cuz everytime I was weak,God gave me strength to face the reality n the world more n more.N in this way my faith grow day by day.

Here,I always being encouraged by my friends,my new church (pastors n friends) and of course by my parent (family) as well as my boyfriend,Stevie.=)

Through them,God always wake me up and He want me know that He will always n definitely hold my hand in whatever my condition is.

My bestfriend;Elya,Allyn n Mcel always guide me n sometimes they really help me to fix back my life n my relationship with God even if it is only a coincidence.

My KBU's gathering member also really help me a lot! Because everytime I came back to my room,I will always think back about the topic that we've been discussed before and I will relate it to my life.And at the time I was awaken by God n oh my gosh,there's a lot of sins that I've done in this week!What more to say if I was counting my past sins..So,I will quickly ask for forgiveness from God.

Everytime I was depressed n I was sad with my life esp in my result,I will always share it with Stevie.He understand me so much that everytime I asked for encouragement,he will always gave it to me.Some advice that really help me in this life n make me realized that I must stand up to fight n go till I achieve my goal.That's what I really like about him.There's one day when I got my result for my **,I said to him that I was failed n I was totally depressed,sad n mad with God.But I still remember when Stevie said to me that,"Why u mad at God?U already try ur best.U don't rmmber God anymore mea?".

At that time,I was awaken once again by God that He already blessed me with so many things but I still want to put the blame on Him when God do not answer my prayer.Again,it remind me that God's plan for us is not a bad plan but it is always for the better.We have to put trust on him.It's just like a test to show whether u're still believe in Him or not if this things happen to u.By this,when u realized what's God is trying to do with u,u'll thank Him because ur faith will grow n grow n grow each day.

So,the lesson here is......U must believe in God.Sometimes, the things that happen in ur life can give u something like a wake-up call or  make us to be a more better person in the future.Sometimes,it's also can fix back our relationship with God.Yes,it's true that u can ask from Him whatever u like but not all that u want will be given to u.God maybe answer ur wish immediately,but sometimes,He would say NO!...or sometimes,He will just keep silent n He want to teach us on how to be patience.

When u are sad or depressed with ur life,come to Him n He will always there to help u.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."(Matthew 11:28-30)

"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." (Deuteronomy 31:6)

"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."(Galatians 6:9)

Heart of Worship

When the music fades all is stripped away an i simply come
longing just to bring somethings thats of worth that will bless
your heart

I'll bring you more than a song
for a song in itself is not what you have required
you search much deeper within through the way things appear
you're looking into my heart

Chorus

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and its all about you its all about you Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
when its all about you its all about you Jesus.


King of endless worth no one could express
how much you deserve
though i'm weak and poor all i have is yours
every single breath

I'll bring you more than a song
for a song in itself is not what you have required
you search much deeper within through the way things appear
you're looking into my heart  (yeah)

Chorus

I'm coming back to the heart of worship and its all about
its all about you Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
when its all about you its all about you Jesus.

All about you
I'll bring you more than a song i'll bring you more than a song
(more than a song)
I'll bring you more than a song i'll bring you more than a song

You're looking into my heart into my heart
You're looking into my heart into my heart
I'll bring you more than a song i'll bring you more than a song
I'll bring you more than a song i'll bring you more than a song

Tenth Avenue North, "By Your Side"

By Your Side Lyrics

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

(Chorus 2x)

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

(Chorus 2x)

Some Facts bout…

Each and everyone of us have a different taught about L.I.F.E…

Some people said that …

Other people said that…

Life is SWEET and SHORT,so people often said that…

Some people also taught that…

While some people said that in LIFE,u must...

As u dream and dream as if u’ll LIVE forever,

then u’re striving so hard to achieve your dream..

The problem is….

Though U live in the life that u’ve planned

and the life that u’ve ‘designed’ by yourself…

BUT sometimes

Some people do realized that sometimes LIFE

Can be C.R.U.E.L and….

 BEING EMPHASIZED!!!

Yes,it’s true…

BUT

Though LIFE is designed like that,we human being

Should moved on from that situation

Because we always believe that

“THERE MUST BE A WAY OUT”..

At that time,we gain some confidence and said…

WELL,

Smile!! =)

And be happy like a bee,

And we will said,

Life is no meaning without RISK,PROBLEM and MATTERS…

And we set our mind by saying that,..

And

Enjoy! That is the only things that u wanna do in this LIFE..

That is some facts about LIFE…

BUT

Look and feel your heart

And ask,

“IS THAT THE ONLY WAY THAT THE LIFE SHOULD BE?”

“IS THAT THE ONLY THING THAT I WANNA DO?”

“IS THAT HOW AM I GOIN TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE?”

“IS THIS KIND OF LIFE REALLY WORTH IT?”

“IS THAT REALLY CAN GIVE ME A SENSE OF SATISFICATION?”

And most importantly,

“IS THIS KIND OF LIFE LAST FOREVER?”

I was inspired by God when I wrote this share…

God showed me one verse from the Bible,that is..

JESUS IS

It’s true that,

I’m not saying that in LIFE,ur love towards other people is not important

But what I wanna say is that

LIFE without Love from God  and Love towards God is nothing..

It’s like an empty cup without no water or any drink on it..

But in the presence of God in your life

It’s like this,

This is the true life..

With Jesus in your life,u’ll always fill with

That have NO ENDS!

And in Him

There’s a

When there’s a sorrow in ur life and u said,

but

 that...

He will always care about us.

He will always understand us no matter how bad is our situation.

He will always stand beside you.

This is what He will always do..

That is how Jesus threat us,and there is

No one in this world can do that except for Him..

Ever heard about this quote??

But,Jesus is NOT..

In Him,trust me..

U’ll find no ends when u LOVE Jesus..

So,Loving Him is not about religion,it’s about the 

BRIDGE OF RELATIONSHIP that u built with him..

LIVE YOUR LIFE WITH AND FOR JESUS

As this world will push and push u till u were down

And makes ur life miserable!

In this kind of situation,u’re not strong enough to handle it

U need JESUS to help u,to stand beside u..

Though World is saying that,

NO WORRIES!

U have Jesus in your life to help u in whatever situation…

Pray to Him,Ask from Him that u really need help..

 

Jesus in your life with all your heart,

With all your strength and with your soul…

Cuz in Him,u’ll find everything that u need in life..

And for sure,it’s LAST FOREVER!

So,it’s depends on us on how we gonna live this life..

Don’t ask other people WHAT LIFE IS

But ask you yourself

WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF MY LIFE?

But only in Jesus,we’ll have our eternal life

Cuz

He is the Way,the Truth and the Life

This is how He show His L.O.V.E to us

I say,